It IS worth it

I have had days lately where I ask myself "Is this really worth it." I feel awful that I have even have to admit that, but it's the truth. The time that I really feel this way the most is Sunday morning when we walk into the chapel. Leaving our house is such a struggle, that I am already ready to go back to bed when we are all buckled in the car. So, my children run into the chapel and I gear myself up for an hour or more of struggle.

Well, there is light at the end of the tunnel!! This last Sunday, I had some inspiration on this matter. We had a great talk in our ward, and I felt like it was for me. It was a sister who has older childre-5 of em. She didnt' have notes or anything, just shared her life experience. This talk came when I was on the verge of tears struggling with Landon and Spencer....Her topic was sacrament attendance and she shared her experience of going to church with 4 small children when her husband was in the bishopric, plus he was military and would be gone for months at a time. At one point, she said she had had enough and wasn't going back until they were little-the struggle each Sunday wasn't worth it. She prayed and then felt like she had to go. She was told it would be worth it and she would know why at one point. She was later in a ward and taught CTR 8's. Her daughter was about to be baptised and there was another girl in the class who didn't come often. The mother wanted her baptised, but didn't know enough, so asked this sister to teach the daugher the gospel. She said she know at the time that it was her prayer being answered.

Well, I was bawling of course, and felt the spirit really strong. Later that morning, we did the primary program for the singles ward. I was sitting there on the stand surrounded by these sweet little children and felt completlely overcome by the spirit-a more accurate term would be envloped by the spirtit. I could hardly talk, let alone sing with the children. I felt the spirit tell me that Heavenly Father know me and my struggles. It made me feel so much better. Prayers are answered. I know that I will still have hard times as my children grow, but they need to be in church and learn about the gospel so they have roots firmly planted. They are Heavenly Father's special little spirits and I have been entrusted with them...Heavenly Father trusts me with them and I need to be in partnership with him as I teach them and raise them.

I also have felt like I need to have more fun with my children and not be so worried about the house, etc. Here is and example of what we did when we got home from school on the warm day last week.